what did i do?
i want to sleep so badly i'm thinking of taking pills.
pills are okay.
they don't do harm.
much.
yesterday was sunday,
which was supposed to be a good day
-at least normal.
i had to ruin everything
like i always do.
i had a fight with my brother
again.
over some stupid things
as usual.
mother was upset, father didn't care
brother's girlfriend was embarrassed
grandmother didn't even hear what was all about (fortunately)
i was in a bad mood.
for no apparent reason i was hysterically screaming at him
for half an hour
and then started to cry over my life
i thought about my poor dog
then cried even harder.
i'm unhappy.
it's not like nothing ever happens here
no
it's the fact that EVERYTHING is happening here EVERYDAY.
and those are not pretty things my friends, no
they're AWFUL.
i hate every single day spent here
and i want to run away so bad i think i'm gonna die.
i don't understand a lot of people.
and i'm pretty sure they don't understand me as well.
not that i care,
but i wonder
what would happen if i disappear now?
would i be missed?
would somebody cry for months for me?
would it be just for months?
what would happen with all those things i did with some people?
would they easily move on?
i think they would.
and i would be glad.
paradox : nisam te nikad video pa mi nedostajes... kad ces da se pojavis da se uverim da nisi samo digitalni andjeo koji obitava u mom kompu?
...don`t worry... changes come, life will have it`s way ;)